December 07, 2005


While I was down south, some of the sights that were to be seen would really start to freak me out a little bit. The most disturbing images were the steps that lead nowhere.

Those steps were part of a three story building that was sitting along Beach Blvd. in Biloxi, MS. That is all that is left of the place. Steps and a foundation. What did the building look like? What kind of people lived here? How much of their personal belongings did they get out? Is this the ultimate price to pay for a beautiful view?

These steps are just to the west of the three story building that is gone. It would have been a beautiful yard had the saltwater not killed all the greenery. I was drawn to these steps since they are very similar to the steps I want John to build for me at my own house. Beautiful steps leading up to the top of the slab foundation...and then nothing.

These steps counfounded me a bit. I'm not sure why the grass is so green over here yet so brown just on the other side of the street. Seeing the pretty stone bench just sitting there under the tree, looking out towards the Gulf. More beautiful steps that just take you nowhere.

I took those pictures on the 12th of October in Biloxi. We had driven off of Keesler and gotten as close as we could to the water. Then we just parked the car and started walking, taking pictures, and talking to whoever was around. There was a man and his son who came out of the house across from the street where we'd parked . It was obvious they still didn't have power or water. Yet they came out and told us about various sights we shouldn't miss. The first set of steps was at the top of the list. There was the woman who lived further down the block. Her townhouse, which she had moved into just two weeks before the hurricane, was completely gone. She was sitting in her car waiting for insurance people to come look at what was left.

I was given an incredible opportunity to go volunteer and help people. I ended up staying twice as long as I was supposed to, and honestly, would have stayed longer had they let me. I felt like I had been in some kind of time warp once I got home. Two months had passed? Where had all the time gone?

One of the most important things that happened was just learning that it isn't worth waiting. Waiting for the right time, waiting for the right place, waiting for the right job, right car, right man, right woman, right paycheck, right weight, right clothes. Why wait? Every morning you have the opportunity to decide to either keep waiting for your life to be just right...or you can decide to just start living it and making the best of things. Every morning since I've taken those pictures, I've decided to live my life and be happy.

Don't wait. Tell that person you love them. Smile at the person who has no friends. Make a pot of coffee, even if you are the boss. Wear that special shirt. Put on those special earrings. Open that bottle of wine.

You should do these things because tomorrow isn't such a sure thing any longer.

Posted by rowEn at 05:39 AM