June 12, 2004

K is for Karma and Kind

Karma - n.
Hinduism & Buddhism. The total effect of a person's actions and conduct during the successive phases of the person's existence, regarded as determining the person's destiny.
Fate; destiny.
Informal. A distinctive aura, atmosphere, or feeling: There's bad karma around the house today.

Kind - adj.
Of a friendly, generous, or warm-hearted nature.
Showing sympathy or understanding; charitable: a kind word.
Humane; considerate: kind to animals.
Forbearing; tolerant: Our neighbor was very kind about the window we broke.
Generous; liberal: kind words of praise.
Agreeable; beneficial: a dry climate kind to asthmatics.

I don't know what I've done in my life to warrant good things happening to me. I know that I am a much kinder person now than I was twenty years ago. Do you ever look back at your life and wonder how the hell it all worked out OK?

For as long as I can remember, fate has pretty much taken care of me. I've made rash decisions that might seem horrible at the time, but looking back now, they were the best thing I could have done.

After Jeff died, I had my choice of where the military would send me. At first I was going to go back to Ft Lewis. Then, quite suddenly and much to everyone's dismay, I changed my mind and asked to go to Texas. I never would have met John if I hadn't made that choice.

I do try to live my life that good begets good. So far it seems to be working. I have wonderful people in my life, a wonderful family that I will live much closer to pretty soon and a job that I love so much it feels like a dream most days. Being kind just seems so much easier, ya know? Spending my time being angry or vindictive only makes ME tired. I like being good.

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