December 03, 2003

Reading the news

So this was in the paper today.

I have to be honest and say that I teared up a bit. I couldn't wallow long, as dinner needed to be made...but yeah, I misted.

We don't know where they are going. I don't know what city to 'watch' for on the news. I really don't think that I wanted to know when they are rolling since I'll worry about ambushes and RPGs and whatever else the enemy wants to throw in the way of the convoy. I was glad to see that nary a shot had been fired today. Hopefully it will stay that way. For the next year.

I'm tired today and cranky and all hormonal. Probably not the best state to be in while reading news from that side of the globe.

I miss him. I miss him a lot. I want to just curl up in bed and lay in the crook of his arm and watch bad movies on the TV. That just isn't going to happen now, is it? I want my cellphone to ring and have it say "John" on the caller ID screen. I want to be able to drink coffee on Sunday mornings with him while we're trading sections of the newspaper back and forth. I want someone else to decide what in the hell we're having for dinner tonight. I miss the hugs.

It is all the little things that I miss about him that just seem so big tonight. I would much rather just curl up on the bed and cry until I fall asleep. Instead, I'll get up and change my clothes. I will finish getting the box together to mail. I will wait for the oven to stop cleaning itself so I can wipe it out with a sponge. I will do two more loads of laundry. I will record a TV show.

Then I will climb in bed and do just what I wanted to do in the first place.

Posted by rowEn at 06:48 PM | Comments (0)