counting flowers on the wall

Holy smokes...I won!

Thank you everyone/anyone that voted for the entry. It is here in case anyone doesn't feel like clicking through the award page.

I am still amazed that so many people responded to what I wrote.

The feelings that I had when that entry was written are still the same. The big difference now is that I know he's leaving. I know where he's going. I know how long he'll be gone. I alternate daily between feeling confident and strong or feeling scared and unsure.

I'm sure I will be fine. I will eventually find a job, find a routine, find my groove so to speak. And then we'll take things one day at a time...just like everyone else.