August 25, 2003

Blue Eyes - Elton John

Blue Eyes Lyrics
Music by Elton John
Lyrics by Gary Osborne

I had just turned 16 not long before. I had just given up the child for adoption.

I remember sitting in my room a lot of the time. School hadn't started and I was still suffering from the banishment of having been pregnant. My parents still weren't really speaking to me so I had a lot of empty time on my hands. I spent much of that time listening to music and looking out the window.

I remember the song coming on the radio. I was just getting ready to change the station when I heard the first lines....

Blue eyes....baby's got blue eyes
Like a deep blue sea on a blue, blue day.

I was frozen in place, standing in the middle of my bedroom. That was what I knew...he had blue eyes. Amazing blue eyes. The kind of blue eyes that you just knew were never going to change.

Blue eyes holding back the tears, holding back the pain
Baby's got blue eyes....and she's alone again

At this point I just crumpled to the floor like a rag doll. Yes, I was holding back the pain and hiding the tears. Who was I supposed to show them to? I was alone. Alone in the house. Alone in my emotions. Alone in all the feelings that were pouring out of me with no place to go. It was only the second time I had cried since his birth.

Blue eyes...Baby's got blue eyes
Like a clear blue sky watching over me

There was never a time in my life when the thoughts weren't there. When the love wasn't there. Not so much a love OF the child but FOR the child. I loved him enough to do what was right. I loved him enough to place him in the care of two people that would love him as their own. I loved him enough to let him go. Not a year passed when I didn't think of him on that day. What was he doing? What did he look like? Is he happy? Does he wonder about me like I wonder about him? Does he even know about me?

Baby's got blue eyes
And I am home, and I am home again

This past July I finally got to see those Baby's blue eyes. In a way it was like being home again.

This song has meant a lot to me at different times in my life. I have had men tell me that it reminds them of me. I have had family tell me that the song was perfect for me, whatever situation I might be in. I don't know if I was blessed or cursed with these blue eyes...but I know that there is at least one other person out there in this world with the same eyes. I like to think of that as a blessing.

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