July 10, 2003

*sigh*

This article pretty much says what I said yesterday. That the troops are getting a bit resentful with the deployments and lack of concrete answers when they ask the very valid question...that being "when can I go home again?"

I'm not going to whine about John being deployed. I know that some people think that is what I am doing when I rail on and on about this stuff. I wish I could explain the past seventeen years. I wish I could find the words to express all of the feelings that have come and gone during that time. I wish I could find someone else to field all of the emotions that come during this time. I'm proud. I'm pissed. I'm bitter. I'm confused. I'm frustrated. I'm sad.

I wish I could explain the frustration that I feel. The helplessness. The total lack of control over my life and the future of my family right now.

Things are all quite hush-hush right now. Let us not tell them too much, lest they fly away in droves. I honestly don't think they would even approve an earlier retirement date for John if he requested it. I also don't honestly know that he would even submit it. He still feels an overwhelming sense of duty to his unit and the military and this country.

How do you compete with that?

Posted by rowEn at 12:57 AM | Comments (0)