May 29, 2003

Sunshine on my shoulders... what I want every damn day of my life! I cannot believe how much better my mood (and probably my demeanor, truth be told) is now that there is more sunshine. I've been tending to the lawn like it is a newborn baby. Watering, feeding. We'll just consider the de-thatching thing like one giant shitty diaper and be done with that part.

I still haven't heard from John, but rumor has it he should be home by about the 13th, if not sooner. An email or a phone call from him would be mighty fine about now. I've got to tell him about my grand plan to move to Phoenix. And that we're going to Vegas. And that all the fish are still alive. And that the cats are still fat and happy. And that I didn't kill our child yet, no matter how much she tempts me to do so some days. And that I miss him terribly. And that I love him. And...well, you can just imagine the hot monkey-sex in your own dirty little minds!

Today is one of those days when I hate my job with a passion. I like the teaching part. I like watching my students learn. I even like my co-workers. What I hate is the stress I start to feel when a student comes to me with an extremely personal problem (that the whole class and half the school all know about already) and the way I feel like I should be able to say or do something to make it all better. I stood outside of school tonight until after 11pm talking to this student and I just kept thinking that nothing I was saying was helping. I mean, yeah, he's fucked either way he deals with this situation....but how in the hell do you tell someone that? I don't want to see him quit school, but if the situation gets any worse, he will end up doing so. I honestly don't know what to do.

There is a lesson in all of this boys and girls...use a fucking condom!

Posted by rowEn at 12:22 AM | Comments (5)