September 19, 2000

What do you want?

I'm 34 years old. I've never gone to college. I haven't gone because I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. I used to think that having my daughter would make me grow up, and instead it's kept me young, seeing the world through her eyes. I can't be THAT grown up, we wear the same nail polish most of the time!

I've done a lot of things in my life. I've worked fast food (White Castle for anyone who cares), waitress in a small cafe, manager of a pizza place (Godfather's), Claims Adjuster for an insurance company in Michigan, sales clerk for the convenience store on base in Germany, various clerical jobs, directory assistance operator, Trainer. I've enjoyed most of them, obviously some more than others. The problem is, most of them still haven't helped me decide what I would like to do with my life. I know that I want to go to school, I just don't know for what. I know that I should stop just putting it off and at least take all the required courses that I know I'll need no matter what, but I'm afraid I'll take them, then stop because I'm still at this impasse as to what I would like to do.

I like making people smile, I like feeling like I've helped someone, I enjoy giving things rather than getting them. I love music. I love to read. I want to do something that makes good money (don't we all?) to put away for my retirement. I'd like to make enough to retire early and ENJOY my retirement. I used to think that I wanted to be a disc jockey on the radio (OK, there are still days when I really want to do that!), but while I don't FEEL old, I'm getting up there on the disc jockey age scale. I don't know if I could do the all.night.unpaid.intern.making.coffee.running.to.get.more.cds thing. (OK, my phone has just rung like 5 different times, and every time I say hello they hang up. If nothing else, Koreans are persistent in trying to reach someone!) Anyhoo, it is something that I would still like to do. Maybe I'll take some general college courses here, and find a community college when we return to the States that offers broadcasting. (GRCC in the Puget Sound area comes to mind, great radio station to boot!)

I should go to housewifey things now, later!

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